Just a little more...

I guess I am not done just yet with my thoughts for the day. I am highly addicted to makeup tutorials on YouTube. It started right after I started therapy. I don't know why but I just love watching them and now I am obsessed with make up and it is extreme craziness. So why the sudden obsession? I have a theory. I believe it is because I am not happy with myself and I feel the need to cover every imperfection I think I have. Did you catch the think? Of course I have thrown too much money into this new hobby of mine. I have to keep reminding myself that I am just searching for the temporary happiness it gives me. My therapist says it is not a healthy way to feel better. I know this but for some reason I cannot stop myself. What is really weird is since I started the Zoloft, the things I use to enjoy just don't interest me as much. I really want to read a book or sit through a movie without feeling antsy. I just cant sit still for too long. I am sure my body is still getting acclimated but I would like to get back to some of the things I love.

Anyway, for Christmas, my mom gave me some awesome cosmetic organizers. I added the picture of my desk/vanity below. I am still organizing and waiting for the last piece I ordered. Well, back to YouTube I go!

- L